Outside Lookin In

Since this year started, its been shit. Literally, like nothing prosperous has happened. Like idk, I have the craziest thought about things. I feel like a tool sometimes. People call me for things and when its done, we're done. Its like I have the illest bad luck. Here's a quick list of things so far:

• Mic got damaged
• iPod broke
• Girl problems
• Family is fucked up
• Everybody is dying, yo!
• Got beef wit dudes for no reason
• Getting in trouble OD
• Madd ppl talkin shit
• the same people saying Whats up to me!
• WTF!
• Computer problems
• Got in like 3 car accidents
• Car problems out the ass
• Friends or phonies?
• Nobody respects me
  

It's a lot more shit, but i just cant think now. I swear i got a hoax on me or some shit. Some things cant be explained wit words. Sometimes i feel like my world is collapsing slowly. People just don't give a fuck anymore. Through all of this, i've sort of found a portion of myself. I got a idgaf mentality. I don't take anyone's bullshit anymore. If I have something to tell, I will. I hold nothing back. I can give 2 fucks about anyone's emotions, to an extent. I feel mad ruthless, heartless, emotionless. Deadass. But i jus thats me and life. Everybody goes through this, but I feel like I should not have to take all this in now. I need a break from this. And even when I think its over, a new chapter begins. All I can do now is live & learn with no concern.

word.
-Peace.